Monthly Archives: September 2014

So Shine Bright…

My therapist asked me to picture an old pirates treasure chest. I pictured a white one with a big silver lock on the outside and velvet covering on the inside. I was asked to place everything I was thinking and … Continue reading

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Stigma or Enigma?

Stigma: a mark of disgrace associated with a particular circumstance, quality or person… Enigma: a person or thing that is mysterious or difficult to understand… I have just put the phone down following a further conversation regarding transport for my … Continue reading

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Laughing in the face of…..

Laughing and being around others who are laughing brings on an amazing feeling, one I wish I could bottle up and bring out when the need arises. When I wake up in a morning, for the first few seconds everything … Continue reading

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Taxi for Sanderson.

I really feel nervous picking up incoming calls from ‘private number’ but I have to answer them in case the call is important. So I pick up the phone this afternoon from ‘private number’ and it is a lady from … Continue reading

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PTSD….and for that reason I’m out!!

Five o’clock start for just over 3 hour drive, or so I thought!! Halfway through the journey I was stuck in traffic on the M1. I started to become really anxious because this was going to make me late. I … Continue reading

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Invictus revisited.

So following my original post regarding the Invictus Games I have received some feedback. Apparently there was a lot of coverage on PTSD prior to the games and many suffering with PTSD took part. I am aware of those who … Continue reading

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Wind them up & watch them go…

Well what a day!!! I’m sure most of you remember those wind-up toys that just took off once you’ve wound them to the max. Well I have felt like one of those toys since waking up this morning….. Today was … Continue reading

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All in a day…

Currently sat in my onsie watching TV on the sofa which is where I’ve been for most of the day. I woke up this morning as I have quite a few mornings with the most awful sore throat! It isn’t … Continue reading

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Eyes down, look in for Symptoms of PTSD (Contains graphic explanation).

I have just spent a wonderful evening with my grandparents, something I do at least once a week now. It’s fantastic being able to spend time with them both and I feel so relaxed with them as they have a … Continue reading

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Please leave a message after the tone..

So I phone the clinic to change my medical appointment very early in the morning as I know I will reach the answer machine and not a real person. I cannot really explain why but all I know is that … Continue reading

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The dream comes true…..for 20 years at least!

Sat here attempting to write in the conservatory which is peaceful until sirens whizz past or a huge lorry shakes the whole place making me jump! I’m in the process of writing a book about my journey from wanting to … Continue reading

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I’ll Stand By You…

Please watch this video and if you can support this cause and you fancy being on a charity single you know what to do. Upload it to my Facebook page ‘PTSD-Support Mental Health & end the Stigma’. I will then … Continue reading

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The aircraft has landed but the journey has only just begun…

So I was so relieved when the aircraft finally took off from Camp Bastion. My heart was pounding so hard, I actually thought it would rip through my chest wall! That is exactly how I felt after leaving Afghanistan in … Continue reading

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Here is where my journey began…

The embedded video was captured by a photographer by the name of Alison Baskerville who spent a day or 2 with me and the rest of the Medical Emergency Response Team. The clip gives you an insight into my operational … Continue reading

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Down With Nature.

It’s soooo noisy outside, why is the world so busy?! I really needed to get out of the bustle so took myself, my pal and the pooches for a very long walk in the woods. It was great to be … Continue reading

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The long road….

So I guess its 8am as the tannoy has just sounded to test the station crash alarm. My heart is absolutely pounding!!! That’s confirmation that I could never continue my career in the RAF. I have been sat wide awake … Continue reading

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Nervous…..

So I am pacing around my room in the Officers Mess ready far too early for an evening out with old friends & work buddies. Why am I so anxious? I haven’t seen some of the guys since I was … Continue reading

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Exercise, exercise, exercise!!!

So I have arrived at RAF Cranwell the day before my medical appointment to a tannoy stating a crash exercise – excellent timing don’t you think!! I was anxious enough returning to the RAF base without a significant reminder….. So … Continue reading

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Sharing….

As most of my friends know I have opened a Facebook page and I have started a campaign to raise monies for CLASP Charity. I have already commenced speaking at various events about my own unique journey. If you are … Continue reading

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Invictus Games for the “wounded warriors”……..

I am currently sat watching TV and most of the channels are talking about the Invictus Games. The brave soldiers being interviewed have all been obviously physically wounded. I believe it is a great idea and it is great the … Continue reading

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