Please leave a message after the tone..

So I phone the clinic to change my medical appointment very early in the morning as I know I will reach the answer machine and not a real person. I cannot really explain why but all I know is that I become anxious at the thought of having to make a phone call, especially when it related to my treatment etc. It is not only when I have to make a call, it is also when I have to answer a phone so I tend to leave it to go to answer machine the majority of the time. I find it easier to text or email because I know emotion wont come into the equation in any way. I find it hard to talk about my current situation and when I am asked on the phone how I am my standard response is ‘im ok’. I have only just booked my accommodation for the night prior to my med board because I didn’t want to make the call. When the phone was answered it was someone I knew and it floored me. I didn’t know what to say so I was polite and impersonal. I never used to be like this and it is awful. This is however where I find myself now. I do call back eventually though xx

About mitsanuk

I left the RAF in 2015 following 20 years as a frontline paramedic. It has been an amazing career but then found myself suffering because of this. My blog exists as an outlet for me as well as a place for others to read and try to understand the mind of someone with PTSD. Please feel free to make comment on any post and lets raise some discussions on how we can help to end the stigma which surrounds mental illness. Thank you for taking the time to read this. Please follow and share in the hope my experience will help others.
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