Monthly Archives: October 2014

Silence is gold plated.

One of my most prominant symptoms is hypersensitivity to noise in various ways. It may trigger irritation, or something much worse. There are some very specific sounds which take me back to being on tour. These are sounds such as: … Continue reading

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The elephant in the room…

So im in Budapest, the capital of Hungary and its such a beautiful city with lots to see. As I walked around it became obvious that the city was steeped in military history. On my return I read up on … Continue reading

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One day at a time.

Sat on the train en-route to the airport and my heart is pounding like mad!! Knowing what im currently going through inside today I look around at the others in this small section of the carriage. There are so many … Continue reading

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Be careful what you wish for…

Today’s blog about the symptoms of PTSD will cover intrusive memories, flashbacks and helplessness. Tonight I am psyching myself up for a trip to Budapest tomorrow. I’m delivering a talk on my journey with PTSD at the First Responders Symposium. … Continue reading

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Relationship……not just now eh!

I am finally slumped on the sofa after a crazy couple of days and I’m in a place to sit and write. Following on with the symptoms of PTSD I want to discuss how the following have affected my personal … Continue reading

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Don’t suffer in silence.

From the contact I have received following this page and my blog it is apparent there are so many of us in a similar situation. Social anxiety; locking yourself away. Numb & unable to communicate your thoughts & concerns to … Continue reading

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In the dark…..

Received a visit from SSAFA this morning and it was really positive, leaving me with a feeling that part of the system is working to help me finally. When I received the letter saying they are closing my case I … Continue reading

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If you cut me do I not bleed?

Aside from my blog and Facebook page I took to the media to get the word out there today, talking about a subject which for some reason, despite the number of sufferers remains a taboo subject, a stigma. It is … Continue reading

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Stand-up to Stigma

Another set of symptoms up there for me are ‘social anxiety’, ‘hyper alertness’ & ‘avoidance’. These I find difficult to cope with because they affect me mentally & physically. I will discuss the last couple of days to give you … Continue reading

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Mr Lathem to clinic room 9 please..

I’m currently sat in a hospital waiting room as my mother attends her orthopaedic review appointment. For those of you who have read previous posts I bet you can’t guess what’s on the TV? Homes Under the bloody Hammer!! This … Continue reading

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Covering over the cracks.

The plan for this evenings blog was to continue talking about the symptoms I am experiencing and how they have effected me so far. However, yesterday’s blog was really difficult and it has taken me most of the day to … Continue reading

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Friends will be friends…..until you let them down.

Definition of poor judgement – making decisions with total disregard to wisdom, common sense, how it may effect the future or others…. The first symptom of PTSD I will discuss is the one which has caused the worst damage not … Continue reading

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All you see is the tip of the iceberg.

I think it’s time to work through the signs and symptoms (S&S) of PTSD, or at least the ones that are having an impact on my life. The list is not endless and each set of S&S is unique to … Continue reading

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Willing but not always able.

One of my previous posts covered the symptoms of PTSD. Considering my current position having to cancel events I had pre – arranged I thought it appropriate to mention the triggers which are hindering my progress, especially when stepping foot … Continue reading

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Don’t let the sun go down on me..

Driving on to the RAF camp showing my ID to one chap whilst another holds his rifle in both hands as if its an accessory. For him his duty is nearly over and he can go home for the evening. … Continue reading

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The best tonic of all..

I’m just lying in bed and my head is buzzing with all sorts of things. I had a terrible night last night but had quite a good day today with only a couple of minor glitches. I ate breakfast with … Continue reading

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Sticks and stones…

Just sat on the bus following another great night with some great people. I’m nervously looking forward to the stand up event but will miss the meet ups & the banter that goes with the evening workshops. I nearly kicked … Continue reading

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Locked in time….

I’m sat here after receiving a text from a friend discussing the walk I am booked to go on at the weekend. Problem is I’m becoming so very anxious about it because apparently thousands are booked onto it. I’ve donated … Continue reading

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My head is in a spin…

So I couldn’t write this yesterday evening as I had a terrible headache. I collapsed on the sofa and stayed there!! I find myself sat on my sofa again this morning looking out of my window and it’s pouring down … Continue reading

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Oh my word….don’t even talk to me right now!!!!

Aaaaarrrrggghhh!!!!!!! Letter dated 1 Oct from SSAFA who are apparently working in partnership with Royal Air Force Community Support: “Dear Michelle, further to my visit with you I have tried to contact you several times and have not received a … Continue reading

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