Monthly Archives: November 2014

I am not my diagnosis.

I made the decision last night to attend the Frog and Bucket Comedy Club night to support Female in Comedy’s 16th birthday. I didn’t buy a ticket in case I didn’t make it but the organiser very kindly put me … Continue reading

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It’s so good to talk.

I had such a weird dream last night that seemed to have bits of everything that I have been struggling with post tour, yet did not feature the same people. Recently my dreams have also featured lots of water?? I’m … Continue reading

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It’s a shame…

Today has been a very productive day for finally sorting out my personal admin instead of what I had planned to do. I originally wanted to go out really early to go shopping. I prepped myself ready and picked up … Continue reading

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One small step…

Following 7 months trying to source much needed counselling I finally had my first assessment yesterday. This I have to thank The Veterans Council for because where the military system has failed me a charity organisation has come up trumps, … Continue reading

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We can’t help you – D.I.Y

Two days ago it was announced the government would be investing £128m in mental health services. The next piece of news identified the government are making cuts to mental health nursing? Contradiction me thinks!!! As an individual trying to live … Continue reading

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Come dine with me…..or not!

So last night I was handed a pack of mini cheddars but I could not face opening the packet. I used to absolutely love them and I would eat them by the 6 pack!!! Well, maybe not that much but … Continue reading

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Take, take, take….

PTSD and other mental health illnesses are a major hole in the lives of those sufferring, their families and communities. It’s difficult for the sufferer to overcome the shame….and symptoms get in the way of recovery. They hinder you from … Continue reading

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Operation ‘Stamp out Stigma’ is now in force!

A friend of mine very kindly shared one of my posts regarding PTSD. I clicked on it to write a thank you comment and saw this: “Dealing with trauma, wounded soldiers is the job she joined up for, it is … Continue reading

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Why didn’t you just….

One of the hardest symptoms of PTSD to deal with is guilt and survivor guilt. I’m carrying a lot of guilt from tour for personal reasons and I cannot escape it. Sometimes I can forget about it for a while … Continue reading

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Apathy is at an all time whatever.

I’m finally sat down after a busy day of painting the kitchen, something I have been attempting to do since a week last Thursday! It’s taken me that long to work up the energy to finally do it and I … Continue reading

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Nightmare on my street.

It is now 0437 and im wide awake following a terrible dream. I wanted to write some details down now in case I’m lucky enough to go back to sleep. I will finish writing this up later……..still awake so I’m … Continue reading

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Not today I have a headache.

So yesterday was spent mainly in bed trying to get through a migraine. One symptom of PTSD I like even less than the others is the one which affects me physically the most – a terrible headache which knocks me … Continue reading

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Michelle asked you for an extra life.

How many times have you received a notification on Facebook asking you to send a life or an extra move for someone on Candy Crush, Dice With Buddies, Bubblewhitch Saga or other such games and shouted “For heavens sake will … Continue reading

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Victims of war.

Scrolling through twitter last night I spotted a post by Denise Welch which included this programme from last year. It is an insight into just how bad PTSD can get. The sad thing is the number of suicides will have … Continue reading

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When a hero comes along.

Throughout my blogs and through my talks I raise awareness for PTSD & mental health. I don’t do this because I want special treatment, I just think its only right that we be afforded equal recognition, acknowledgement and treatment as … Continue reading

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It’s oh so quiet….

So I thought I would continue to talk about symptoms and this evening I will be talking about feeling isolated. During all my time in the RAF I have met some truly unique and inspiration people. I’ve also met some … Continue reading

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Night shout torrets!!!

So I thought I would tell you guys about a tough day in the life of MERT – one of the worst shifts I have experienced. I was on a 24 hr shift with Anouska, Simon and Brian on one … Continue reading

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Take up our quarrel with the foe…

The poppy….a brooch which hangs on the left side of my jacket currently. A red piece of paper shaped as a poppy with a plastic green stem hangs on many a person’s garment. Images of poppies displayed on everyone’s Facebook … Continue reading

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Incoming….

Yesterday evening I decided it would be sensible to stay at my mums house instead of being on my own. I sat in my onsie on the sofa trying to remain calm but not sure it worked very well!!! As … Continue reading

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Buddy, buddy system.

During a lot of our training in the RAF we had been taught to adopt the ‘buddy, buddy system’ as first line support. This is a process in which people, the “buddies”, would work together as a single unit so that they are … Continue reading

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