Victims of war.

Scrolling through twitter last night I spotted a post by Denise Welch which included this programme from last year. It is an insight into just how bad PTSD can get. The sad thing is the number of suicides will have increased.

It is disappointing to know that veterens are not being tracked. I know this is true because I am one of them. It’s sad to accept that having given 20 years of life to the RAF, it has meant nothing….

To me I have learnt and grown so much since the ‘rabbit in headlights’ I was when I first joined up. I was really niave and insular as well as massively underconfident. I knew nothing about the world really and I wasn’t big on socialising. I had no trust in people and had no belief in myself. Being in the RAF helped me grow as an individual and helped me find myself. I gave everything I had to the RAF and to developing my career. It’s so very sad that I have to leave in such circumstances. It’s also sad that I never got to say a proper goodbye to my RAF family. I’m reading about people having great top tables to say goodbye to everyone but I went on sick leave and never went back. I somehow don’t feel I have closure and I feel let down terribly by ‘The System’. Dr Seddon, Major Mason and Eva Graves have been amazing with me but they can only do so much. Thankfully I have met some lovely people at the Veterens Council who are happy to invest their time in helping me. Why should we have to rely on charities to help us? It’s like once your out of door you no longer matter.

Well I think ‘some people’ need to take a look around and accept some responsibility. Every street, every village and every city in the UK are surrounded by the impact of war one way or another.

BBC Panorama 2013 Broken by Battle:

About mitsanuk

I left the RAF in 2015 following 20 years as a frontline paramedic. It has been an amazing career but then found myself suffering because of this. My blog exists as an outlet for me as well as a place for others to read and try to understand the mind of someone with PTSD. Please feel free to make comment on any post and lets raise some discussions on how we can help to end the stigma which surrounds mental illness. Thank you for taking the time to read this. Please follow and share in the hope my experience will help others.
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