So I sit here at 1130 feeling a little dizzy with random tingling going on in my head. Today I officially commence the controlled withdrawal from my meds. I actually started at the back end of last week but I became quite icky so I had to recommence the full dose. The reason I chose to go back on the full dose is because I was due to speak at a conference and didn’t want to let anyone down. The conference, which was yesterday, was a big thing for me and I needed to be firing on all cylinders.
I was speaking at the International Trauma Conference in Telford to my peers, some of whom I had worked alongside. Aside from clinical staff involved in the treatment of my PTSD, I haven’t really opened up thoroughly to those I worked with. It was a challenge to keep it together but I managed it thankfully. I received so much feedback on my social media from those in attendance, as well as attendees on the day, stopping me following my speech. What became evident but of no surprise to me is that so many understand and can recognise some of the things in themselves, or others. Hopefully the more we speak out raising awareness, the more understanding and support becomes available.
Today I commence the withdrawal and I will hopefully talk you through it as I go through it. I was on Venlafaxine 75mg and I am attempting to function on half that dose. I had a busy spell early this morning but now I feel dizzy and sat on my chair not wanting to do anything!
So, it’s just after 9pm and I have just climbed into bed to watch TV. I didn’t end up sitting around, I ended up quite busy. I’m not feeling too bad at the moment to be fair. I have felt a little dizzy and my head has had a strange tingly thing going on. I haven’t had a headache but my head has felt ‘heavy’. I’ve been yawning away yet felt strangely more awake today. I know it’s going to be a slow journey off the meds but I’m willing to give it a good go. Really going to try….